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28
Jul

Loss

Posted by: crisradmin

I write today to soothe a pain that I can’t medicate and to express a feeling that has no word to describe.  Our first canine companion is named Charlie (Sir Charles, Chuckers, Choololaluba, etc) and he was a perfect little red headed Golden Retriever puppy – for about 5-6 months.

Charlie never dropped and we had to subject him to a surgery that more mimicked a spay than a neuter (neuter is what’s used for male pets).  A little after moving to FL, Charlie began to display amphibian eyes (bug eyes) and we learned he had ocular atrophy that didn’t hold his eyes properly in his head – nothing to do but medicate and hope it went away, and it did.  Then, we received a major shock when Chuckers had his first grand mal seizure.  A lifetime of meds for our lil’Charlie.  No biggie; we medicate and Charlie was still Charlie through the veil of phenobarbital.

A little under 6 months ago we learned that Charlie had cancer in one of his front legs in the elbow.  He’s struggling to get around and we’re doing what is possible to make him more comfortable.  He is, however, no longer shining through those big brown bug eyes.

Back to 1999, we were preparing to leave FL as the environment didn’t suit us.  We had passed a beautiful female Golden Retriever that was sequestered in an outside patio – during heat, rain and nappy weather.  We felt sorry enough for her situation we approached her owners and offered to take the dog to a large parcel of land in NC.  They declined and we drove our moving van to NC.  Several months later, we were in our new home for just a few weeks when we got the call: “Lady” was in a kennel in S.Florida and if we still wanted her we could pick her up.

So, I jumped into the Suburban and drove 18 hours straight to Kendall FL and picked up Lady (what an awful name for such a beautiful girl) and drove straight home.  That was a stupid altruistic gesture that I’ll be hard pressed to replicate (the non-stop round trip, not the rescue).  When Charlie saw Lady, they looked at one another and immediately started playing and were inseparable.  When we snapped a picture later that first day, we commented that Charlie’s courting through the screen of the patio all those months were realized in this initial meeting at our home.  Charlie and Lady were officially a couple.

Lady was pretty uneventful as a pet, with the small exception that she is an escape artist.  We chalked it up to being pent up in that outdoor space for two years.  A year ago, during our first Mastiff “Tank” cancer treatments, Lady was diagnosed with a Mast cell tumor in her back leg.  We scooted Lady into surgery to remove the tumor in the hopes it was localized, but a few months later the tumor recurred.  We’re now helping Lady up the stairs and her mobility (like Chuckers) is severely limited.

We have an unfortunate and difficult set of choices in our near future – Charlie will likely cross the bridge sometime very soon and Lady isn’t far behind him.  We’ve had to euthanize a pet before, and it is ‘never’ easy.  We’re now faced with bringing two pets to the vet for the last time and it’s tough to know what to do.  One of the options is to bring the couple to the vet at the same time; another is to wait until there’s no other plausible option.  Both are suffering from inoperable cancer and are not happy.

This process is cathartic for me; writing helps to settle my mind and clear my heart.  If anyone reads this I seek not to share my misery but to make sense of it and qualify those feelings and situations.   Life isn’t fair, loss is guaranteed and love is in the present.  My memories of Chelsea, Indie and Tank are vivid and filled with joy.  That Charlie and Lady will leave us is guaranteed; the loss will hurt and all I can do between now and then is love them and do my best to choose our next steps wisely and compassionately.

23
Jul

Victim(?)(!)(-)(+)

Posted by: crisradmin

“Evil requires the saction of the victim.” – Rand

What is a victim in the world of today?  What does it mean?

There are victims of abuse & force – rape, war, terrorism, assault.  They are victims of the event; meaning they are not associated with or a party to the violence that they experience in the event.

There are other ‘victims’ who are, knowingly or not, sanctioning or giving permission to the evil that they experience.  There are many examples of this – self-pity, domestic violence, crushing remorse, etc.  I struggle with referencing these situations or individuals as victims as they have a choice in the matter; even in only aware of the choice at an near unconscious level (thank you Wachowski brothers).  The fact remains that choice is not spoken about more and more in our sanitized, politically correct and increasingly polarized world.

As an example, a recipient of welfare ‘chooses’ to accept the states check instead of doubling down and making extraordinary efforts to work and earn an income.  The choice as with all things is surrounded by the controversy of our times – what conditions were present when the choice was made; what is the historical context; what if any limitations are present to keep the person from choosing action versus accepting the liberty sucking contribution from the state?  I contend there is very little difference in the cocaine dealer giving away the first hit of powder to gain a customer than the state handing out checks to those who are perhaps not as financially affluent as others.  Once the state has a welfare recipient they want to keep that person pacified to secure more voters in their ranks.  The most altruistic of intents turns into something that would be outright rejected if presented in the open.  Attempting to help those experiencing tough times turns into power hungry elites searching for conditions that favor more state subsidies and less liberty – more people on some kind of handout.  The handout is nefarious because of human nature – once a person has something, even if that something is a lie, they will vigorously fight to keep what is theirs.  Ownership is more important that the truth and someone will fight like hell to keep what is theirs.

There are those who are born poor, disabled, with different skin tone or odd features.  There are those who are bullied, shunned, called out or ostracized as kids.  There are those who feel that past transgressions to ancestors affect their journey in life today.  None of these things control the exercise of choice and freewill.  They are conditions of the human experience.  I was born to those with modest means, disabled and a real nerd in school.  I have freewill – I choose in every case how I behave.

There are those who believe that there are only oppressors and the oppressed (re: victim) and that the oppressed must rise up and defeat the oppressor(s).  There are those who believe that society must be controlled to avoid victims being hurt.  There are those who push political ideologies on the backs of made-up victims (only to control and continue to perpetuate the conditions they felt caused the bad event in the first place).

I contend there is no such thing as a victim of circumstance, of hurt feelings or of history.  How you rope-a-dope with life, racism, discrimination, taunting, oppression and any other event it takes two to tango is about choice.  The liberal/progressive activists wish deeply that no harm would come to the sensitive – that those who were oppressed have the right to give some payback to the progeny of those who harmed them in the past.  That everyone who walks this earth would be equal, have equal stuff and live in a sterile, fake Star Trek world.  We’re not there; it’s not feasible; dreaming doesn’t make it so.  We’re still in a society based on money.  We’re still in a society that is built around meritocracy.

There are those in power today in the US who have felt/played the victim role their entire lives – as minorities, academics, activists or misguided money-bags.  They either see value in leveraging the victims for their own means or they retain their very large chip on their shoulders and they feel justified in paying back the ‘oppressor’.   For humanity to take the next step we do not require socialism, communism or a form of government.  We do not need government run programs, redistribution of wealth or skyrocketing taxes.  We need the awakening of choice and the awareness that claiming ‘victim’ status must also have context and intention tied to the tapestry that is seen.

We used to see things (more often) with a broader, wide angle lens if you will – there were questions about a persons intentions, their circumstances and the context of the situation.  A claim of harm did not automatically don the veil of victimization – stuff happens and you take care of business and move on.  Today the climate is purposefully divisive.  Gotcha political games don’t just populate the halls of Congress, but in every business where those games are tolerated.  They are played in Homeowner Associations, Churches, PTA meetings and any other location where positions of “power” are available.  If you make a single error, and you happened to err against a maligned group (or one who has powerful people at the helm), you’re certainly toast.  There are no guiltless parties anymore.

“Let go and let God” is a popular saying in spiritual circles – this removes the burden of carrying perceived victimization as you are giving that to the Almighty.  It’s telling that in our secular society, full of ill-conceived and false traps built through political correctness, the individual is no longer accountable for their reactions to circumstances.  If Jesus does return to the world, and walk among us, he wouldn’t just be mobbed by the faithful – the number of delivery persons serving summons to appear in lawsuits where acts of God were blamed would potentially outnumber the faithful.

20
Jul

What you think you believe…

Posted by: crisradmin

Why are you affiliated with the religion that you elected to follow?

Why are you associated with the political party/ideology you believe in?

How do you choose to participate in your community and why do you choose to do so?

Those questions and many more have been in my thoughts recently.  Recognizing that as children our thoughts and beliefs are shaped in a manner that is rarely checked or controlled by the child (primarily as we don’t know how choice works at that age), it’s incumbent on individuals maturing in this world to assess their beliefs. Read the rest of this entry »

22
Jun

Carving Tools – different types explained

Posted by: crisradmin

There are always lots of questions about carving gouges and their sizes/profiles – here is a catalog from Stubai (available at Klingspors in Raleigh) that are very well made.
http://stubai.com/pdfs/stubai-de-schnitz-poliert-55.pdf

You can also look at the Woodcraft imported brand Pfiel (swiss made) gouges and chisels here:
http://www.woodcraft.com/articles.aspx?articleid=39

Either article should show the profiles adequately to confuse the heck out of you and send your head spinning (or give you an idea of what you’d need to look at the next time you’re buying carving tools).

5
Jun

DMB Live at The Beacon Theater

Posted by: crisradmin

http://www.hulu.com/watch/75927/dave-matthews-band-corn-bread-live-from-the-beacon-theatre#s-p2-st-i0


This is a killer rendition of Cornbread that comes from the Beacon Theater show just a few days ago.

4
Jun

Too much input

Posted by: Cris

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3
Jun

Little iPhone app for wordpress access

Posted by: crisradmin

Found a great little WP app for the iPhone today – it’s goingto make blogging a heck of a lot more conveinent.
CRIs


All you can say is – Damn

26
May

A long/good Memorial Day weekend

Posted by: Cris

Paint, sponges, glaze – oh my!  We started with the following which was boring and outdated – and boring.  And WHITE – oh my…

We now have our little slice of heaven – sore but happy.

Not too shabby… :D

To all – I apologize for not catching the issues with the picture galleries until now. It seems that somehow the pictures all ‘went away’ – for reasons I cannot fully explain.

If you came here looking for pics of the Raleigh wood carving show or the wood working show, please visit www.raleighcarving.com.

That site has the 2009 show for carving and woodworking, along with past carving shows going back years.  Thanks for your patience and never hesitate to leave a comment if something doesn’t look quite right on either site ( crisrogers.com or raleighcarving.com)

Thank you!
Cris Rogers

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